dreamsong of the hour

wedding planning is driving me maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!!!!!!!!!!

we've set a date, and it's SOON, oh so very soon...

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sonnet 60

Today is it? Is it today? I shudder
For nothing in my chair, and suddenly yawn.
Today I suddenly believe. Since dawn
When I got up, my muscles like a rudder
strain crosswise from this work. I rise and mutter
Something, and hum, pace, and sit down again
Hard. A butterfly in my shoulder then
Stops and aches. My stomach swings like a shutter.

As the undergrounds piston a force of air
Before their crash into the station, you
Are felt before your coming, and the platforms shake.
So light, so small, so far still, to impair
Action and peace so... risks we take make true
Maybe our safeties... come for our risk’s sake.

girl crush

love

at some point early on, i realized that love was a dumb idea. all those movies and tv shows where people say, when it's love you just KNOW, as if it's some sort of infection or disease that inflicts everyone with the same symptoms, the concept couldn't possibly be true. and after my first relationship came and went, and i started to wonder what it would be like to fall in love, or when this thing would happen to me, my ideas on love began to change. i thought love couldn't be a real thing. emotions are just a chemical reaction in the brain, and everyone is different in the way they experience the world. i decided that love was something to be decided. when i felt that a sufficient amount of time had passed or a sufficient amount of emotion had been felt, i would just go ahead and say it. because really, what did it matter? i guess in some ways i still believe this. there is no such thing as "love" like you hear in songs and read on gross candy hearts that i'm pretty sure are made of chalk. love is probably different for everyone, and i'm sure relationships can find love in different ways. but it turns out it's true what they say. when you're in love, you just know it. you can't stop knowing it, and you can't stop being amazed that you know it. i never thought i could fall in love, and while it makes me feel kind of lame like a bad r&b song, i have never been so happy to be wrong.

gettin' hitched

did you know that most people plan weddings for 16-12 months? did you know that? i did not know that. i've got about half that time. good god.

luckily, i've got a good headstart, since i already know i'll be having my wedding a chuck-e-cheese and my dress is all picked out.



exciting!!! and now i have to go make a website and roam around williams sonoma with a laser gun hunting le creuset and china. see you all at the end of spring. it's going to be tatariffic.

pomacrastination

there was an insane rainstorm yesterday, so i spent the afternoon inside seeding pomegranates and listening to npr. it was pretty swell, not gonna lie. i filled a large glass container with the seeds, and viewing the abundance made me feel like a pirate with treasure. MINE ALL MINE AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

so anyways, i used up about a third of them making chocolate chip pomegranate cookies, and i've been trying to figure out what to do with the rest of them. interwebs and cookbooks been unhelpful, so i'm thinking of trying out some sort of jelly. i have a large bottle of sparkling rose wine that i could use... but then i might not only waste fruit but alcohol, for which i'd never be able to forgive myself. maybe i'll just toss them into cheesecake brownies. while drinking wine. hm...

i obviously have a story to finish writing. you can tell because all i can think about is drinking and eating cookies. yesterday's score: 12 cookies, 7 sentences. i am in the red :(